Reclamation

Here, survival becomes restoration. The speaker doesn’t just get out—he begins to return to himself. We see the reemergence of faith, reimagined as something softer and more authentic. New relationships form. Fatherhood deepens. Healing is claimed without apology. These poems do not rush. They rebuild. They restore gentleness without giving up strength. Peace no longer feels foreign. It begins to feel like something that belongs.

Order of Poems & Prose: False Prophet – Inherited Ruin – Nicotine – Late Night Drives – Sentencing (courtroom prose) – Bullshit – No Contact – Panic – Faithful – Sanctified Silence – Psalm for the Unseen – God Doesn’t Cheat, So Why Did You in His Name? – Letters I’ll Never Send – Embers – Man Enough – The First Time I Didn’t Flinch – Teach Me Love

*Please be advised: This book contains references to physical and emotional abuse, child abuse, gaslighting, suicide threats, and domestic violence. Reader discretion is advised.

Reclamation

Panic

Jonathan Valania

Then the panic started to rise.I could feel my heart beat out of my chest.My head spun and the room closed in.  

Panic

Jonathan Valania

Then the panic started to rise.I could feel my heart beat out of my chest.My head spun and the room closed in.  

Faithful

Jonathan Valania

And her vanilla scented embracegrounds me in the thoughtI’m wanted for who I am,not what you made me.

Faithful

Jonathan Valania

And her vanilla scented embracegrounds me in the thoughtI’m wanted for who I am,not what you made me.

Sanctified Silence

Jonathan Valania

She said I was the abuser,and they believed her.Because she smiled louder than I cried.

Sanctified Silence

Jonathan Valania

She said I was the abuser,and they believed her.Because she smiled louder than I cried.

Psalm for the Unseen

Jonathan Valania

I don’t quote verses anymore.I don’t need to.I’ve lived enough scriptureto know that deliverancedoesn’t always come with light.

Psalm for the Unseen

Jonathan Valania

I don’t quote verses anymore.I don’t need to.I’ve lived enough scriptureto know that deliverancedoesn’t always come with light.

Psalm of the Betrayed

Jonathan Valania

You didn’t just cheat.You made it spiritual.Wrapped your deceit in scripture.Said God was “working on your heart.”

Psalm of the Betrayed

Jonathan Valania

You didn’t just cheat.You made it spiritual.Wrapped your deceit in scripture.Said God was “working on your heart.”

Letters I'll Never Send

Jonathan Valania

"This is a letter I’ll never send. Not because it’s meaningless, but because it’s mine."

Letters I'll Never Send

Jonathan Valania

"This is a letter I’ll never send. Not because it’s meaningless, but because it’s mine."

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What began as court documents, voicemails, and text messages became something more. It's a story about survival, truth-telling, and the long, sacred work of healing.

Letters I’ll Never Send is a raw, autobiographical collection of poems and prose written through the aftermath of emotional abuse. It speaks for the moments you couldn’t. It says what was never safe to say out loud.

Ordering the print edition includes exclusive poems and reflections not available online—and directly supports outreach efforts for survivors of domestic abuse.

This book is for the ones who made it out, and the ones still finding their way.

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