Settled

This final section is quiet, reflective, and sacred. It doesn’t tie everything into a neat ending, because real healing rarely does. But the dust has settled. The quiet is no longer dangerous. Fatherhood is no longer shadowed by fear. Faith becomes personal. Love is no longer something that requires shrinking. This is not a celebration—it is a recognition. The violence ended, but the voice remained. And now, it speaks peace.

Order of Poems & Prose: The Wreckage – When I Finally Told the Whole Truth – Detox – The First Morning I Didn’t Cry – The Quiet Came Back Slowly – I Didn’t Think About You Today – She Asks About Them – God, Undressed – Settled

*Please be advised: This book contains references to physical and emotional abuse, child abuse, gaslighting, suicide threats, and domestic violence. Reader discretion is advised.

Settled

She Asks About Them

Jonathan Valania

“You’re doing right by them,” she says. And it lands somewhere quiet in me.

She Asks About Them

Jonathan Valania

“You’re doing right by them,” she says. And it lands somewhere quiet in me.

God, Undressed

Jonathan Valania

“I don’t trust churches anymore. But I’m learning to trust stillness.”  

God, Undressed

Jonathan Valania

“I don’t trust churches anymore. But I’m learning to trust stillness.”  

Settled: The Last Letter I’ll Ever Write to You

Jonathan Valania

“Peace didn’t come wrapped in noise. It came in dishes left in the sink without panic.”  

Settled: The Last Letter I’ll Ever Write to You

Jonathan Valania

“Peace didn’t come wrapped in noise. It came in dishes left in the sink without panic.”  

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What began as court documents, voicemails, and text messages became something more. It's a story about survival, truth-telling, and the long, sacred work of healing.

Letters I’ll Never Send is a raw, autobiographical collection of poems and prose written through the aftermath of emotional abuse. It speaks for the moments you couldn’t. It says what was never safe to say out loud.

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This book is for the ones who made it out, and the ones still finding their way.

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