Every entry, held quietly.

Today I made a doctor's appointment without overthinking it. That sounds small. It isn't, for me. A year ago I would have drafted the phone call three times in my head first. I'm writing this down so future me remembers:…

The first time I said out loud that I wasn't okay, I said it to a stranger in a coffee shop. She was reading a book I liked. I don't know why it came out. She didn't flinch. She just closed her book and said, "I'm really…

She used to leave the porch light on for me, even on the nights we didn't speak. Especially those nights. I didn't know that was a kind of language. A quiet way of saying: whatever today was, you still have a way home. I…