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Part V · Reclamation

Blueprints of a Broken Home

My parents taught me love was commitment— not communication. Break your hands, drop to your knees, let your partner stand on your back just to see past the skyline— even if they never do. My father learned love by gasping. By cooking eggs at three while his baby sister cried— no mother in reach, his hands too small to matter. My mother learned love in a house of shadows— men cycling in and out until one stayed, raised children not his, taught grace. But the walls still echoed with words never spoken. My sister learned like I did: we mistook promises for anchors, climbed backs for glimpses of greener grass we never watered. Our garden grew beneath a city we never reached. And when I broke my hands— no one caught me. My back worn from holding someone who never looked down to see. I don’t know what I’ll teach my sons. But I pray it’s not this: that love is pain. That bearing it makes you holy. Marriage breathed like a cross on my neck. But I was never strong enough to lift her up. Maybe strength is teaching love where no one has to break to belong.

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