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Part II · Descent

Deceit

You preached unbreakable bonds— unfractured trust, the fairytales our mothers sold us. But you couldn’t even look me in the eye. You screamed. Begged. Waited for a reaction I had already buried. The one you obsessed over? You called him divine. But he was carved by fentanyl highs, stitched together by syringes you mistook for redemption. Still, you wept for him. Not me. I didn’t grieve his death. But you did. Just like your first choice— the one who stood you up, still warm in your texts when I said “come home soon.” You grieved his silence while promising me love. I don’t know their names. All the others. But I know this: You wore my bruises like a costume. Played survivor in a story you authored with a smile. You weren’t broken. You were a blade. You cut when they looked away. Cheating. Beating. Breaking. Undoing. Your deceit was not the crack— it was the hammer. And I— was already split before you even swung.

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