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Northernly · I'm Alright · Track 11

AgainE

A song about the search for a self that's already home. Every version of you is still alive — you didn't lose them, you let them in.

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
In my body
Checked around everything's here
Same two hands, same bad habits
Same old knot behind my ear
I keep waiting for the moment
Something finally clicks in place
Thirty years and every morning
I still check to see my face

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought by now
I'd know me better
I thought by now I'd know

[Chorus]
Here I go again, again, again
Try to find what is missing
Again, again
I pull at the skin, I count every bone
Looking for someone who's already home
Here I go again
Here I go

[Verse 2]
I was seven, I was seventeen
Twenty-three and barely there
I've been searching, I've been faithful
I've been fucking scared to death
Every version swore the next one
Would finally get it right
Funny how I keep becoming someone else every night

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought by now
I'd know me better
I thought by now I'd know

[Chorus]
Here I go again, again, again
Try to find what is missing
Again, again
I pull at the skin, I count every bone
Looking for someone who's already home
Here I go again

[Bridge]
Maybe there is no underneath
No final layer, no missing piece
Maybe every man I've ever been
Didn't disappear, I let them in
Seven, seventeen, twenty-three, twenty-nine
Every single fucking one is still alive

[Chorus]
Here I go again, again, again
Try to find what is missing
Again, again
I pull at the skin, I count every bone
Looking for someone who's already home
Here I go again

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Questions

Where can I stream this song?+

Again is available on Spotify, Apple Music, and SoundCloud as part of I'm Alright. Album links are available above and on the release page.

Can I buy the vinyl?+

I'm Alright is pressed on vinyl and shipped from the United States. Each record is made to order, with production taking 3-5 business days before shipping.

What album is this from?+

This song is track 11 on I'm Alright, released in 2026.

Content care+

Northernly songs are trauma-informed and include reflections on grief, abuse, and recovery. Move slowly. Skip what you need to. Crisis hotlines and survivor resources are at /resources.

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