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Northernly · I'm Alright · Track 5

Arizona Motel BibleE

A sleepless night in a borrowed room, a Bible somebody else underlined, and the difference between surviving and finally feeling alive.

Lyrics

Three letters
Already gone.
The desert
Wouldn't sleep.
Neither
Would I.

[Verse 1]
Room key.
Wallet.
Nightstand.
One Bible
Pressed
Between
The drawer
And the wood.
The air conditioner
Kept humming
I counted
Headlights
Through the curtains
Until they blurred
Into morning.

[Pre-Chorus]
Orange light.
White sheets.
Static.
Silence.

[Chorus]
Arizona Motel Bible
Tell me who I'm meant to be.
'Cause I'm tired of acting tough
When I can barely fucking breathe.

Arizona Motel Bible
Vacancy glowing red.
There's a difference between surviving
And feeling alive instead.

[Verse 2]
Someone
Underlined
Three verses.
Someone
Folded
The page.
Someone
Must've found
What they needed.
I just
Kept searching
For mine.
The sun
Found the blinds
Before it found me.

[Pre-Chorus]
Orange light.
White sheets.
Static.
Silence.

[Chorus]
Arizona Motel Bible
Tell me who I'm meant to be.
'Cause I'm tired of acting tough
When I can barely fucking breathe.

Arizona Motel Bible
Vacancy glowing red.
There's a difference between surviving
And feeling alive instead.

[Bridge]
The coffee
Tasted burnt.
The room
Felt borrowed.
The desert
Kept stretching
Past the parking lot—

Like it knew
There wasn't
Anywhere
I could run
That I hadn't
Already been.

[Chorus]
Arizona Motel Bible
Tell me who I'm meant to be.
'Cause I'm tired of acting tough
When I can barely fucking breathe.

Arizona Motel Bible
Vacancy glowing red.
There's a difference between surviving

And finally
Feeling alive
Instead.

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