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Northernly · We Were Never Really Here · Track 4

Silent Thoughts

The hardest song on the record — slammed doors, open-handed love, and the inherited anger that keeps mistaking pain for passion.

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2:17

The remade version of “Silent Thoughts”: new melody, new arrangement, same story.

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Lyrics

Silent thoughts, but you're slamming doors.
Sullen in the dread you spilled on the floor.
And I wondered if we could go back from here,
Rewind time and make everything disappear.
But only you know why you can't stand being here.

And you cried about the love, you left behind,
Got so tied up in life, you couldn't stand your mind.
No remorse can hide, the haunting pain you coincide.
And the angry fist you can never hide,
The one your mother taught you how to find.

So fill me up with your poisonous touch.
The toxic love affair I've been yearning,
And make me feel like our love is burning.

Open handed love across my face,
That's the passion you've misplaced,
why can you only love me with pain,
For some reason it feeds the flame.

Love gone mad, persuasive by design,
Fan the flame, and it feels divine,
And we always cross the line.

Open handed love across my face,
That's the passion you've misplaced,
why can you only love me with pain,
For some reason it feeds the flame.

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Where can I stream this song?+

Silent Thoughts is available on Spotify, Apple Music, and SoundCloud as part of We Were Never Really Here. Album links are available above and on the release page.

Can I buy the vinyl?+

We Were Never Really Here is pressed on vinyl and shipped from the United States. Each record is made to order, with production taking 3-5 business days before shipping.

What album is this from?+

This song is track 4 on We Were Never Really Here, released in 2025.

Content care+

Northernly songs are trauma-informed and include reflections on grief, abuse, and recovery. Move slowly. Skip what you need to. Crisis hotlines and survivor resources are at /resources.

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